"My biggest hurdle in recovery is accepting the weight gain."
"I am scared of losing the disordered eating as my comfort blanket."
"I am still trying to control my weight with one form or another."
"Resisting because I am scared sh*tless of gaining weight in recovery."
"Instead of aiming to love my body, I just don't want to think about it."
🧝🏻♀️ Precious beings, I get this.
🤦🏻♀️ I once was the ultimate DIETING QUEEN.
Raw food diet, CTFU diet, Slimfast Diet, the banana diet...
you name it, I was on it! 🛑
☺ (This is a past I have no shame in admitting; in fact I am extremely grateful because this allows me to instantly connect to my disordered eating clients' experiences)
😖 Top it all off with my obsession with the most high-calorie-burning workouts.
I had a whole big cauldron there of all things that I hoped had burnt burnt burnt me to razor thinness.
For years I just couldn't let my control over my body go.
✊🏻 Until I figured out a way that worked for me.
🖐🏻 Now, I am five years into my full recovery.
💭 Just yesterday I thought about how convoluted it always had seemed to think of having a meal out.
😣 It is effing exhausting.
👐🏻 Hands up if you pretty much have given up going to the meal even before the date has come around??
I see you.
I know because I've been there too!!!
😙 Now, I could simply say yes and check in with my gut. My gut feels great and looks forward to this chance to have fun with friends and family, and try new food!
🙅🏻♀️ I am no longer thinking about the horrible consequences of eating outside of my safe foods and intake amount/calorie count.
🛑 It is not about knowing － because let's face it, you already know it is not doing you any good and yet you are still stuck in this loop of self-sabotaging behaviours － because if you continue in this same old streak, your world will cave in more and more until you're completely relapsing again.
🌟 Instead, I work with your current state and open up the trapdoor of your subconscious mind via your energy circuits.
🌊 This allows you to undergo massive uplevel even BEFORE the mind realises what is going on.
You know when you speak to people who are fully recovered and you ask what changed for them, and all they could say are...
"Something just switched on one day when I woke up and I just knew I didn't want to live like this anymore."
"My mentality just shifted suddenly and I realised I didn't