I once lived in Paris in absolute impoverished state.
But it was also the richest time of my life.
The room was a shambles.
My peers were moving out to better apartments down gorgeous tree-lined rues.
And I chose to stay back in the same room, even though I hated the threadbare blanket, the holey sheets, the shitty mini fridge and grimy sink.
I chose to look out of my window at the Eiffel Tower shining her glorious light in the distance when the sun set, telling myself that as long as I looked out of my window, I would be okay.
I distanced myself from my peers out of shame, deeming myself the only black sheep, a writer, whose talent was probably not up to par, when everyone else was a brilliant artist in their own right.
I returned to my home soil after 3 months in Paris, cut down to barely 32kg and having injured my foot after severe walking and overexercising.
I was hooked up to IV drips. I saw a doctor. I met with a hypnotherapist for the first time in my entire life as a young woman.
I would keep looking outside of me for what I thought could fill me up inside of me for many more years.
Looking back I could say now, I did not know I could ask for what I needed.
💃 I did not know I had to return home to me. I did not even know I had a place inside of me to claim I am powerful and divine in my own sacred authentic truth.
Massive self-doubt attacks, not knowing who I was because I was so used to changing my energy to suit others, desperately seeking to fulfil everyone's demands of me － many years of seeking for answers to heal brought me to here and now where I know now the Way to awaken deep self-love in women who seek to become at one with their soul purpose. 💗
My experience from deep disconnection to embodied living in my body has allowed me to reconnect mind-body-soul and help others open up portals in the body so that they can live in alignment and create impact with our sacred work, free from self-flagellating criticisms and low self-worth.
But what really brought me to a higher level of consciousness was the moment when I fully accepted my sacred gifts as authentically me.
That I do not have to conform to any patriarchal BS.
And this all began to unfold fluidly when I decided to fully love and trust myself. 💕
🍃 When I had made the vow to remain devoted to the Way home to my soul, everyday it allows me to tap into Source, becoming a vessel and channel of the Universe.
And this is where the energetic focus on "what I have" and "Not having it" can either bring you more abundance 💖 of opportunities like never before, or completely blindsides you from seeing what is good and available already for you.
You are a creatrix of your life. Open up to creative flow, my love. 🌌
You already have what you seek － and it is entirely available in you.
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Be you, be free, it's all available for you, 💋