I am afraid to say this.
I have been.
Pacing the dark halls of my mind.
🖤 I am not good enough. I need to give more. 🖤
I know I have been down this way before.
Are you an artist when no one loves your art?
Are you a writer when no one reads your words?
I have seen this play out before.
I want to be so good
So perfect for everybody.
Sitting with Tea today I heard Her say to me,
"Share your love with the world, and don't forget to stay open and receptive to love. Love is at the core of your heart chakra that suffuses through your entire being."
She － Tea － shone the light for me to step through.
Love is multi-faceted.
I saw myself
Love springs from the well of pleasure －
Please-sure. Sure to please.
🖤 I cannot be sure to please though.
How can I when I only know what I know? 🖤
A terrible place to be sometimes, I feel.
But we have the strength to surrender and see that fear can transmute into love
Into something beautiful
Embracing my fears and crying
Embracing my anger and throwing a glass bottle at the wall
Embracing my disappointment and pummelling them all into my pillow
When I come to meet Tea Spirit's soft gaze and feel Her touch upon my head
I know that I am seen through all the darkness in me. I am always guided by the grace of Her spirit.