How I Healed From Self-loathing And Hate

I used to hate this face you see right here.⁣ ⁣ I wanted to change my skin tone and eye colour.⁣ ⁣ I have spent the majority of my childhood wishing I was white, wishing I didn't live in a country like Malaysia. ⁣ ⁣ I used to blame my great grandparents for taking the ship to escape the Chinese revolution to, of all places, Malaysia! (FOR real 😆)⁣ ⁣ ❌ These were deep wounds that led me to 10 years of anorexia and other eating disorders, codependent relationships, and a slave to the big social engine of high-achieving burnt-outs.⁣ ⁣ Now I haven't just found reconciliation with my own DNA.⁣ ⁣ 🌟 I have found inner peace and purpose.⁣ ⁣ I have connected deeply with my ancestry and ancestors through divine channels.⁣ ⁣ And it all came to me in this beautiful plant medicine.⁣ ⁣ Tea that encourages me to listen deeply.⁣ ⁣ Tea that asks me to be still to open myself up to my shadow sides and embrace all of them as part of the constellation that makes up who I am.⁣ ⁣ I have developed such a strong resolve to honour my bloodline and my lineage, my traditions and culture through this beautiful Eastern shamanic practice.⁣ ⁣ I have rekindled my love for the cloud-walking sages and my relationship with the Goddesses, particularly Guan Yin and Xi Wang Mu, the embodiments of light and dark, yang and Yin - and all the things in between. ⁣ ⁣ I am here to serve and share this pathway home to our hearts, to reconnect mind, body and spirit.⁣ ⁣ It is not just drinking Tea 😉⁣ ⁣ Divine communion with Tea Spirit, for me, is non-negotiable now.⁣ ⁣ She is ever changing, but ever present.⁣ ⁣ Her effervescence can come in gigantic waves of elation and ecstasy.⁣ ⁣ Or She could be simply, quietly allowing, serenely carrying me into the fold of the unknown. ⁣ ⁣ I am always led. I am always rooted to my truth. I am always guided back to my centre of stillness. ⁣ ⁣ The chaos of life is actually truly a mystery.⁣ ⁣ 🌌 A beautiful, boundless mystery.⁣ ⁣ All of this takes place within the confines of my body. ⁣ ⁣ When I show up authentically, divine and messy me, these are the exalted and grounded feelings that stay me in the present moment as well as shape-shift my body into freedom, attract abundance and aligned relationships into my life:⁣ ⁣ ♥I now remember who I am.⁣ ⁣ 🖤 I honour my generosity and boundaries.⁣ ⁣ 🤍 I receive abundance with pleasure.⁣ ⁣ 💖 I am grateful for all that I have.⁣ ⁣ I know with certainty that everything is happening in my favour and the collective's highest good.⁣ ⁣ These didn't just happen overnight, but I want you to know that you can absolutely get this at an accelerated rate. ⁣ ⁣ 👑 Yes, Goddess.⁣ ⁣ A radical shift can happen for you when you say YES to full transformation. 🌠⁣ ⁣ 🧜‍♀️ If you are ready to align with your true Self, let's chat.⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣ ·.·⁣ ⁣ Warmest Love, ⁣ LiYing 🎐

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