🌀 What propels me forward and into a state of consistent flow is a daily devotion to sacred ceremony and ritual. 🎋
🌿 These sacred practices are dances with the divine Way that put me into a deep level of gratitude and love that has pulled me out of the survival mechanism of overgiving, chaos, fear, and self-hate.
I spent most of 2019 and the first half of 2020 fearing when things were going to end when I first started to journey down the path of self-employment.
It all began as a soul calling, and then it became apparent that I had a lot to learn when it came to running a business.
There were people who said I could not make sustainable income from creative spiritual work.
There were people who told me I was too expensive.
There were people who told me I needed to charge a fee when I did it for free.
🎐 Growing up with a codependent ideology, in which silence held many terrifying nuanced consequences, I found solace in the reverent silence in the sacred spaces I could hold for others.
♾ This silence feels like a shade of deep blue.
It is the mountain mist parting to reveal the peak and the abundance of emerald and green.
For all those time, I did not see any possibility in sharing my woes.
And so I trod down the market of vagabonds and troubadours quite blindly, pulled and tugged by voices in all directions, listening to suave success stories and praying someday I would learn how to make it like them too.
I began to put large amounts of money down. From ads to funnels, you name it.
The fear of losing everything so dear never dissipated.
It amplified to a point where the silence was physically manifested.
I hit rock bottom. I still could not voice out my needs at this point. All I could remember was that emotions of abandonment, betrayal and mistrust were swallowing me whole. That saying that goes like "keep doing what has not worked, that's insanity"?
That was me.
🍃 The only thing that anchored me was The Way of Tea, for you could never stray far from it. Tea Spirit has a way of holding you so you could always find your way back. 👣
I continued on my studies of shamanic alchemy and bioenergetic healing, trusting that it is non-negotiable in contributing hugely to my work and credibility.
One day, I woke up and felt it.
🧿 Something shifted.
I knew that I got the answer, and it was up to me to accept this solution － I needed to end the victimhood stories of things in the past that I had tried and didn't work, of people who tried to put me in a box and hide away sides of me that feels unconventional ("too out there/the masses won't get it").
And then I remembered how I healed myself from anorexia.
I had to start doing things differently to get a different result!
I started working with coaches who truly allow my light to shine fully.
Since making the decision and doing the alchemical work to break the patterns of old beliefs, I no longer see myself as a victim of my past.
🕉 I began to own my voice and speak from my heart about things that I deeply cared for.
My upbringing and family conditioning have taught me obedience, humility, saving up for rainy days and staying in your lane.
That conditioning had served to an extent growing up － but now I knew I had to break those rules in order to rise into my fullness.
⚜ In so doing, I have also healed so many wounds and it has energetically enlightened me.
I can now see that my parents' rise from poverty can teach me that nothing is impossible.
It is my turn now to break the generational wound by spiritually healing this poverty consciousness.
Most of all, I can see now that I don't ever have to do more to make more.
Who are you when the muses no longer come to visit you?
What is left when you cannot do what you came here to do?
I realised these are all just fear talking, and the only way I can make peace with fear is to look it in the eye fully, embrace and understand it, and set it free.
💎 Because when you understand that when your mere presence － just that, nothing else － is radiating personal power and purpose, you need not do anything more to "attract" in all that you desire.
It is all a beautiful unfoldment of what limitless abundance of love and freedom, peace and divine riches that have always been your birthright.
I now choose for life to be easy and fun.
I choose for life to be abundant.
I choose to value myself and my work and work with those who value me and my work.
I do not bargain. I do not discount.
And in turn, I can be more generous and see that come back in tenfold.
🪞 Because everything in your life is a reflection of your internal world.
🌊 Most of all, I understand now that the tides may come and go, but my devotional practices and my presence are constant, and they will carry me through the unknown.
That divine riches is inherently for me.
I will continue speaking my truth into plein air until my voice carries its heart resonance across the caverns, mountain slopes, valley trails, and forest groves.
🔱 Really take this on. This has truly freed me from staying stuck in victimhood mentality:
If you knew that everything that happens in your life is in your favour, what would you be doing? How would you be living? ♥
🌕 I have since uplevelled massively and created a programme that gives realistic results with unparalleled guidance and alchemy. I am doing what I love full-time and earning more than I ever had whilst working as an employee each month. YES, I AM OWNING IT. 👑
⭐ I know what drives me is that knowing that my sacred medicine is truly so needed in these pandemic times and I know it needs to be shared so women can remember who they really are － even when the scarcity noise is just in pandemonium now.
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