Not so long ago, I was living in a 300 sq-ft flat, dreaming of connecting with a community of spiritual seekers, of being held by the gaze of amazing heart-opening teachers.
I did not know what it was I really wanted then though. All I remember feeling was that I did not belong, had never felt at home anywhere I went － and I certainly had had a good amount of travel notches on my bow.
When Tea crossed my path, I had thrown up a huge yes to the Universe. I asked to be shown the way. I asked to be given a sign.
And the Universe delivered, in a bowl of Tea.
The following, not all-encompassing, are some of which had crumbled into ashes and allowed me to rise as a new being. 🙏🏻🕯
All those years of chasing after people who did not see me for me;
All those years of deeply ingrained beliefs that if I give my heart fully I will be robbed and stabbed in the back;
All those people around me who showed me to show up with a cloaked face and caged heart;
All those times when I truly had caged my heart away so I could climb the proverbial ladder, become a leader, turn into a successful corporate something;
I had had my heart twisted when I was not considered for the role of assistant editor once.
My ex-editor in chief and mentor said to me, you wouldn't want to be desk bound, would you?
She had known me better than I ever knew myself.
I was ambitious. I had drive. I had big dreams.
But I was also running endless miles.
All those times when I felt I had to keep doing better so that I can be loved and appreciated;
All those years of believing that I had to change into someone that fits the standards of society to be accepted;
They all melted away － and lest you think I am completely enlightened, don't think that for I still get moments of which I call "human" moments － and still continue to melt away as I continue to show up at this altar of devotion, this daily practice of ceremony and connection.
I wrote once that The Way of Tea had shown me, increasingly, day by day, how to honour the space of mediocrity.
This is not about not doing.
It is about non-doing: the Daoist sages called this Wu Wei 無為.
This is about learning that the bud never forces her blossom.
This is about learning that every fall is a fall of grace, not disgrace, not a failure.
This is about moving in faith and compassion.
Because this is all there is to life.
We are going to dive deep to unearth the treasures of your heart ❤
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Hello darling one, If you're reading this far in... I am guided to lead 1:1 in a 3-month container beginning June 2021 for anyone who feels called to receive the blessings of the Way of Tea.
If it feels aligned, please reach out. I am looking for 5 spectacular souls to begin this very bespoke and unique journey into the veins of the Leaf, into the vast cosmos, into the alchemical Dao. 🌌☯️🌕
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