It genuinely boggles my mind when people always say they want the truth and yet, when served up with the truth, they just cannot handle it.
The world has become so well-versed with sidestepping feelings that when they hear how people feel about them they get all super riled up.
I mean, I get it.
I have been there, done that.
I have been on each side of that coin.
Offended when someone said to me I was less than perfect or "nice".
Afraid of telling them what I really felt and went along with the ride because I didn't want to hurt their feelings.
Let's stop mistaking nice for good.
A woman would bend over backward to be nice is someone who does not know how to ask for help is oftentimes struggling with resentment, overgiving, overcompensating and undervaluing her own time and precious worth.
We all want to be loved. We all want to be seen, acknowledged, accepted － but to what extent of sacrifice are you making of yourself to earn this?
Because if you hold that belief － that you have to earn love, acceptance and support － deep in your subconscious and you are yearning to break free to live your most beautiful life, making immense impact with your soul purpose, you are still operating with a dissonance that is chaining you to the old paradigm.
There is something you are not willing, or you fear, looking at within you.
And you don't know what to do. You don't know who to ask for help. You don't even want to even － perhaps you believe you have to do this alone. You have to be perfect upfront and don't want to talk about it.
I used to live in that world.
But I could not bear the pain of living a life that did not feel true.
So I did the work to look deep and alchemise my wounds and pain into something I use now to light The Way for other women...
The first step was to say, "I don't know how." and then diving into the spaces where I had feared going and just allowing myself to hold space for the love to come through here.
I held forth for all my Protective Personality to fall away to find The One seated deep in my core who is thrilled to be claiming back her seat as the creatress of her life.
I began to build energy circuits to sustain this beautiful flow of energy that opens up more channels to call in my cosmic magnificence － all with the refined approach of bioenergetics.
From the start, my journey deep into my heart is guided by the Way of Tea, Her Spirit walking with my terrified closed off personality through corridors of forgotten memories to healing wounds and subconscious dissonance in Ceremony with Tea medicine and Spirit.
And this has opened the door to Daoist alchemical healing, where I meet my Dark Goddess and receive guidance to emotional mastery for my continuous evolution as a cosmic being living a human experience.
Now, I call in the most beautiful clients because that is my only truth.
I am treated by others the way I treat myself.
I speak my truth with love. Always with love.
And still there are times when people just think I am seeking to kick up a fuss.
At times when my truth does not sit comfortable with another, I have to walk forward and lead always with love.
How they take my truth is beyond my control －but I can always speak from my heart with words that are calm and deeply seated in my vortex of stillness.
I speak now to your Highest Self －I am asking her to step forward to tell me: what do you truly, deeply desire to create?