➡️ through to see
1️⃣ diary entry in 2015 pre-recovery
2️⃣ late 2016 during recovery
The one word that sums up what broke the cycle of my eating disorders is Ichi-go-ichie. 一期一會. If you are not really taking in this moment now, you will constantly be searching for more, for the next, and the next and the next...
I did not know it then, but I know it like an oldest friend now.
Effortless, as though I have known Her for a million years.
The one thing that has saved my life is also incredibly simple and effortlessly opening doors for me.
This practice gives me roots; it sends fountains of light out to my auric field.
Feeling enough in each present moment, in the Now, I no longer feel inadequate to be loved.
It has opened me up straight in the heart, connecting me to the vast unknown, where it is always enough. This is so difficult to describe in words, and perhaps that is what the sages have said long ago － there is no one word to describe where our souls came from, where our souls belong.
And so here we are, spirits in bodies, bodies that are manifestations of the pure energy that we truly are, living a life that will serve our consciousness' expansion and ascension.
In this sacred space, we are effortlessly dropping all that are given to us by others － our name, identity, job title, numerical identification, accolades.
Here we drop the pretence of knowing-it-all. Here we simply bow our heads in the great Presence, of our hearts, of the Divine.
And at the very end, we learn to unlearn everything so we step into the next unknown moment with a clean slate.
This daily practice will seep into our entire being so we can fully see the wonders of our body.
Our body is constantly changing. When we let go of knowing, we can look at our needs, wants and our body's signals with fresh pair of eyes at every tidal wave of emotion, feeling, and thought.
This is the gift of being. Of presence.
This is the secret to true, lasting peace.
And the thing you probably didn't know? That Soulful Self has always been within you.
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