"Why does everyone leave in the end?"
"I don't matter. No one would even notice when I'm gone."
I used to hang out with people I felt was just as good as me. I feared being amongst people who were more successful - and yet, circumstances would keep giving me these opportunities to be with the glitterati, the illuminati, the celebrities and the icons and kings and queens of their own fields.
And so it became my protective mechanism quickly to humbly bow out of any opportunities that gave me a space to further deepen a relationship with these people.
When I realised that I had spent all my life building a protective personality and manufacturing this performing self that has kept my authentic self at bay, I wanted to stop feeling miniscule so I can truly get to know the most amazing people I admire, and not love them out of fear or put them on a pedestal.
I made a decision to embark on a path that will continue to take me closer to my Highest Self.
And here's the thing － to get to your Highest Self, you've got to go to the lowest depth, the void, the dark caverns of your unconsciousness.
Only then, will you be free.
The truth of who you are will set you free to live the life you love.
Now, I tap into what feels inconvenient and uncomfortable.
Now, I don't stay in a place where I just think about it to the point of inertia.
I do it because I can.
I can because I choose to.
You don't have to crack the code...
You just have to get curious at this: just because you haven't seen it (yet) doesn't mean it does not exist.
And what you believe and are programmed to see are all happening at the subconscious level.
For me, I am devoted to The Way to consistently embody my vortex of stillness, to purify my mind and open my heart to listening to my internal world, so that I remain a crystalline vessel for Spirit to flow through me.
Are you willing to go all in when it comes to living in your authentic power, even though you cannot see how the way forward will go?
Are you going to see to it that no matter what, no matter how long it takes, your vision is going to come to life?
If you can love without having to be validated for all that you give...
If you can speak all your truth and still speak as loudly even though they seem to fall on deaf ears...
If you can believe that you are an energetic match for your impact, your cosmic magnificence, and trust that you are on The Way to it all...
That makes you effing magnetic.
That makes you the true embodiment of the vortex of stillness.
That gives you back the power to be whoever you came here to be.
the question always goes back to, what do I desire? what actions can I take/what must I feel now to become aligned with that?
and we tend to fall into our masculine energy to hustle to "make it happen"... when really what we need to do is to clear the vessel to become an embodied energetic match, not simply intellectually comprehending it all.
Alchemy is only allowed to happen for us when... we allow.
I do this work with my clients by releasing unconscious doing and behaviours through quantum level bioenergetic healing work, and initiating them into true alchemical wisdom and the magic of Cha Dao Tea Ceremony that has been part of the Daoist traditions since ancient days.