🛑 The Bottomless Hunger. 🛑
I had felt perpetually famished when I first took a nosedive into ED recovery.
Whilst I know now that it is completely normal for the body to reset in refeed phases, at that time, because I was not equipped with the right information and education, I was infused with shame, guilt and fear.
I had panic attacks and I felt utterly horrified. I became even more embarrassed about myself and my body.
I didn't want to be seen eating.
I just wanted things to go back to how it was, where I knew exactly what I was doing, despite how secretive and tormenting being stuck in starvation and restriction was. I thought that was better because at least I knew what I was doing and felt "in control"!
😖 Needless to say, I had quickly relapsed and went on in this pattern for over ten years.
🌊 Now I know this to be a very common thing that keeps so many precious beings stuck in the loop of relapses too well, and I have made it one of the core teachings in my 6-month programme so stay with me here.
If this sounds like you, then you would want to read on so you can save yourself from some pain 👇🏻
🥀 understand that every body is different and that YOUR body is f*cking unique
🥀 your body is famished. It needs to be nourished. Imagine a tank that has been running low for so long － it takes a lot more to fill up and run smoothly. It may take time to recalibrate and it may choke up or cough up some fumes. Understanding this and remaining calm and non-judgemental － and most of all, patient and self-compassionate － can help build the bridge from where you are now and where you want to go.
🥀 the way to setting you free from the cycle of disordered eating is to have the food that you want to the extent of satisfaction. Yes it may FEEL like you're eating "a lot"; yes, it may FEEL shocking to the mind that you are eating "bad" food, but this is a highly effective way that I found myself to be the quickest way to show the mind that it is okay and that the world is not going to end just because you had a no-no
🥀 You have to be willing to let go of safety and certainty to make the big leap of faith
🥀 body acceptance does not mean giving up or letting go. To me, it really means embracing your body unconditionally. From there, I learnt how to work my way to loving my body unconditionally, and this is what I hope to impart to my clients.
🛑 Losing weight is totally not worth losing your life.
🕯 To help you get into channelling your true nature, here are some feelings you can feel in to change up your energy (because where attention goes energy flows!):
🕊 What would you feel like when you are completely at peace with your body?
🕊 What would you feel when you are totally lit up and have complete gratitude for simply being alive and present to to your life right now?
🕊 What would you feel when you are able to be in the company of your loved ones because you are not obsessing over what/how much/when you can and cannot eat?
🕊 What new skills and actions do you have to take to wire in your new reality?
🌟 And if you need help to get beyond the mind level of recovery, I am available to chat with you on how you can fully heal through embodying the work you have done in recovery.
🥀 If you would like to go on a sacred journey of disordered eating recovery without relapsing and spending years in therapy, you can book in a free Share & Heal Session with me after watching this free training here.
🌊 The 6-month programme is designed to
get you from fearing weight gain, obsession with food, destructive loop of negative self-talk, relapsing over and over again to 🦚 empowering you with tools and practices that can be applied throughout the day while doing the inner work to help you...
👉🏻 make peace with food
👉🏻 get out of the restrictive eating rollercoaster for good,
👉🏻 eat without any guilt