I Felt Like A Loser
- LiYing
- Nov 18, 2021
- 4 min read
The truth about how I carved my own unconventional path to do what I love unapologetically is not as pretty as it looks all the time.
There were many days of fear, scarcity and tears as I faced up to the challenges that met me in the eye, demanding to know if I was truly worthy of creating this life off the beaten tracks.
There were so many days when I felt like a loser － thoughts like "am I good enough to serve?", "nobody likes me" running wild as fuck in my head.
There were people who taught me if I hid my ways, I would be okay. "Hide away the ceremony, hide away the psychic shit, hide away the woo, so people will get you!"
I was scrimping and fearful of using up my savings. I made the leap from a full-time career to a whole new dimension and I felt directionless, a lone flag cast our into the storm.
And then I heard Tea Spirit everyday telling me that, "You are held. You are guided. Keep going. You can't do it wrong."
I had to learn to fall in love with myself fully because as long as I didn't, I knew I would keep doubting my work and my capabilities to the point of self-sabotage.
I wanted to do this, to serve from my heart. I knew this was my calling, my soul purpose. And because I felt this resonance so deeply in my heart, I made the jump every single time I was called to rise.
Now I know that everything happens in our favour, and I can tell you from personal experience that no amount of figuring out or strategic blueprints to follow the success of others will work if you do not get this: your self-worth is the key to embody your divine riches, doing what you love unapologetically, untouchable by external validation.
Every uplevel will call you to take that jump into the unknown.
I was so done with begging for free stuff, this pattern of suffering and trying so hard only to end up aimless and struggling to make the business work.
I was so done with feeling not enough, for living in the fear of going broke.
I knew there was more to this. I absolutely felt it so strongly, but that calling was covered up in layers of scarcity conditioning.
I knew I was being called to rise and speak my truth.
I knew I could no longer hide away any parts of me.
I feared success because I had a belief it meant leaving people behind and becoming more alone (it is lonely on top, anyone?).
I spent months feeling increasingly that my sacred work needs to be shared in a bigger, lusher, and more integrative way.
I spent months trying to do what others thought I should be doing, and yet, the mystery of coming into my own mystical power unveiled itself through simply making one decision － to claim my power and remember who I am.
Chant with me, Goddess, so that you remember in this moment right now: 🥀
⚜ I am not a victim of circumstances.
🧜♀️ I am a Goddess and I can breathe my dreams into existence.
💖 When you remember your limitless potential and abundance, there is no turning back.
This is what makes me exceptional. This is why I understand what my clients go through as they awaken deep self-love to create the life they are born to have.
Sure I KNOW I trigger the eff out of some people, and that is absolutely fine with me now.
⭐ I am not for everybody. Of course I am not. I am couture, darling, as one of my mentors would say! 🤣
I am now deeply grateful for the opportunity to mentor Siren Goddesses who are so committed to do the work and rise. 🧜♀️
What we are doing here is huge. The work may feel invisible, filigree and subtle, but the legacy we are going to leave behind is a new slew of light leaders who are empowered and healing the world with love, from a place of fullness. 💎
🧡 When you are full, you are serving from that fullness, without resentment and shame or guilt.
🔥 When you are full, you do not need any external validation of who you are and why you do what you do.
When you feel you need to protect yourself from an entity, that means there are parts of you that you are not accepting.
🌌 When you are in unity consciousness duality doesn't have a place here.
Now, Goddess, I know it can feel a little terrifying to stand at the precipice of your divine transformation, but if living a life you love unapologetically is non-negotiable for you, consider this my invitation to you to rise. 🕊🌟
I am offering a free Heart-to-Heart chat with me ☎️ today to receive your divine roadmap 🔮 to ascension. 🌅
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Be you, be love, set yourself free. It is all here for you, 💋
LiYing🎐
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