How To Stop Waiting

REAL TALK 💙 How to stop waiting until "you've got it" to do what you truly desire 💙⁣

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When I think back to the times before I got to this here and now, I remember the things that felt as real as they are here now.⁣

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When I was earning £11 on donation basis for my ceremonies, wondering how I could make ends meet.⁣

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When I was all stressed out about all the SHOULDS thrown my way by my loved ones, in the name of love. ⁣

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Times when I doubted I could make it any further with this work because it seemed like no one could hear me or see me.⁣

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Then the times when I took a giant leap and invested in surrounding myself with people who took leaps too, and the floodgates opened.⁣

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Times when I totally felt like a queen and nothing could faze me because the truth of my sacred work engulfed my smallness and fears. ⁣

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The clients came and my illusions were all falling off. I can actually make this work!⁣

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The times when I sat on the floor in front of my laptop screen, silently holding space for my clients' tears.⁣

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The times when my heart burst with light as I witnessed their expressions and energies transform from victim to victory.⁣

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The cold in my living room when the nights grew longer and I had to rely on my moon-shaped lamp to illuminate the space where I had bowls and bowls of hot Tea in ceremony. ⁣

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And of course, along the way, the dissent, the upset with me of where I could not meet someone's expectations, the ones who drop away saying I am not enough... ⁣

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"You're not extroverted enough... go start DMing them for a chat."⁣

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"No, you're not doing it right. Here's how you should do it."⁣

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"You waffle in such abstraction people don't get you."⁣

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"It is so hard to tell exactly what you do. What do you do again?!"⁣

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"You have to go out and network and interact."⁣

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"You should do the latest trendy thing so you can attract more clients."⁣

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"Instagram doesn't like long captions."⁣

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"Dance on TikTok. That will sell."⁣

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"Sell, sell, sell. Do, do, do."⁣

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OH FUDGE. WOMAN. ⁣

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What is left of me to unpick anymore?⁣

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Can I hold the old paradigm alongside my desired reality?⁣

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In stillness, I find my authentic voice again.⁣

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In untangling from my subconscious dissonance, I hold my dreams to the light.⁣

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In embracing something greater than my primal instinct to survive, I reclaim my creatrix power and align with freedom. ⁣

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Freedom that is created.⁣

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By me. ⁣

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I am always going to be lyrically wreathing words upon words.⁣

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I'm always going to get excited about the littlest things.⁣

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When I say I am a Goddess I know that not everyone gets me.⁣

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And that's okay.⁣

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I know who I am and what I have to offer is not for everyone.⁣

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I have done the whole appeasing thing. I have also sold in a way that I was taught would work.⁣

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The one thing we often forget is we did not ask to come to this dimension here at this time on earth to be something else to fit in a box and to please others.⁣

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We are here because we want to unfold into the experiences that will evolve us ever closer to our cosmic magnificence.⁣

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I have a lot to thank for because it is the journey that I remember － and there was a whole lot of agony, fear, disappointment, anger and overwhelm, but there was also a lot of joy, miracles and abundance. ⁣

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On this journey, I am going to make sure I don't fall asleep. ⁣

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I want to drink in the scenery. I want to stay awake as it all comes together in alchemical proportions, calm serenity made manifest already, not something I can get only when I've arrived.⁣

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The journey to rise is already abundantly beautiful in our lives, the ten thousand things we desire made manifest.⁣

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Here's to many more to come, and thank you for sticking around as I continue to evolve and journey on my Way to unfolding into my magnificence. ⁣

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Be you, be free, it's all available for you, 💋⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣

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LiYing 🎐⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣