🌠 𝐈 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐞 🌠
The woman you see right here, today, used to be consumed by anorexia.
I have cheated on my body multiple times.
I have chosen to believe the comments that I am "not good enough" and "unattractive, average, not memorable" were showing up to toughen me up ("I'll prove them wrong! I will show them!").
I have chosen to believe that comparison keeps me on my toes and in constant improvement.
I have tried to manipulate the shape and size of my body to win approvals.
I have put up a show that I have got it all together all the time because failure was not attractive, not cool.
I have pushed my body to extremes and flagellated it for not doing enough.
I have starved. I have strove.
I have filled it to the brim and to the point of explosion.
I have had it implode on me and then I had to see it for what it is.
A never ending source of energy. My body, who never deserts me, no matter how I treated it.
My body, who loves me and wants the best for me, no matter how much hate I had poured into it.
My body, all that have kept me alive despite how I have ill-treated it without awareness, without consciousness.
🌄 And as the sun rose the day I first began to thank my body for working so damn hard, I said to my body:
You are f*cking amazing, did you know that?
You who have stuck with me through the most abusive relationship ever.
🥀 And I am so sorry. So very sorry.
I make it my mission to get every woman back into their bodies, to know that self-objectification is not okay.
That we are meant to be loved just as we are right now, that there is no need at all, no need at all, to strive and try and win approvals and ask for permissions to be who we are meant to be.
The one that we know in the deepest of the truest of our own hearts.
That there is no such thing at all as a mistake, only lessons, only heart-opening lessons that are there to take us closer, with every step of the way, to the centre of stillness, the place where we can stand as who we truly are.
You don't have to lose any part of you to gain what you want.
And you are way more than this body. Way beyond this body.
You are the infinite stars. The raindrops that follow the snowy mountain streams. The rainbow that light up the sky after the storm.
You are a magnificent sky dotted with city lights and so much more.
You are the blades of grass and the wind that chimes with the pine trees.
You are a human being.