I had a panic attack this morning. I think the last time I had one was also my first, when I was caught in the midst of the Hong Kong protest alone.
The same feelings assailed me. I felt cold all over, my heart was racing a million miles per hour.
I left multiple voice notes on @lifeisjustastorywritten my soul friend's phone, frightened by the liminal space between reality and dream of 4 in the morning.
The veil was so thin. I knew I felt a Presence in me. This loving awareness. I prayed to find solace, to find peace.
I knew what drove me into the dark night of the soul.
I recently placed a bet on myself. I made a decision to step up on my dreams and purposes in service of others.
That is the most terrifying thing. Placing a bet on myself.
How many times have we really done that? How many of you have had the courage to do that?
I ask because I woke up and saw it so clearly,
That we are all capable of placing this bet on ourselves and believing fully in our capacity to deliver.
This was what I did.
· 〰️ Inviting Presence 〰️·
When we stop trying to name whatever it is that is arising from this
Presence comes forth
When we become presence itself.
There is a loss of thinking
In this space.
This I-know-nothing space
Where Awareness is present you cease to be
Presence has no name.
It feels like home
Nourishing us from within with its luminescence
We surrender to the creativity that glows like ember
And the spark grows into a great conflagration.
This is when we live in concordance with the Dao.
This is when we know the vast intelligence of the Universe is one with us.
This is when we live in our Buddha Nature.
And so it is
From this space we take actions that are not lost in unconsciousness.
And so it is
How karmic ties are released.
I am stable.
I am vulnerable.
I am balanced.
I am strong.